This quote echoed in my head when I had meryenda with my officemates and enjoyed watching the sunset. I involutarily uttered that time “ang ganda talaga ng sunset noh? I love it!” But one of my officemates replied, “hindi rin!” I persuaded him, “ganda kaya! Tingnan mo ung kulay nya, so lovely. And stand out talaga xa s surroundings.. parang… parang…” I didn’t finished my words because it suddenly disappeared and I felt something and like what I’ve said a while ago, I heard this quote echoing in my head. And all along, this quote is right. I realized that I’m still living with this sadness. But I hid it from my officemates and we went back to our area after that moment.
I’m still asking myself, how come? It’s been 3 years since then. I thought I’ve already moved on although I still love him
a little or that much? I really don’t know. Now that I have a lot of idle time, it’s killing me. Thinking all the memories that still hurting me this much. I thought I’m okay. But my mind heard my heart saying NOT. And again, I’m asking and praying to give me some distractions, I need to become busy, very busy to the extent that I couldn’t think of those things anymore. PLEASE?
Siguro nga, kahit gaano mo kagusto ‘yong star s gabe, it will never fall for you. Pero di ba may falling star naman? kaso mapapansin ko pa ba xa kung isa lang ‘yong star na gusto mo? Ah, ewan! wala namang sense eh. makapag emote lang.
My Mr. Grey: sya nga pala, medyo malamig pala mga mornings these days, kaya baka masama pakiramdam mo. mag kumot ka ah okaya sweater. advice lang, hindi naman sa feeling close, alam mo un,.. advice ng isang tao sa kapwa tao ,parang social responsibility. un lang hahaha. :)
Me: (comment) LOL! parang kinilig ako dito ah? ang gangster pala, marunong ding maging concern? hahaha.. :)
I miss my blogs and reading the blogs of others. It’s been quite a long time since then and I’m really glad I was able to have time for this from now. Maybe some of my followers (chos! actually, they are my friends) wondered why I never type a single word for almost 2 months. Well, that was an adventurous story.
Well, after the board exam, I was ultimately shocked from the result. I was like Sisa that time, finding some Basilio and Crispin from the list, and asking why I cannot able to find them. But of course, in my heart, I thank God that He made me lucky. Mixed emotions that until now, I cannot defined.
Three days passed before everything sink in my thoughts that I am a CPA already. So eventually, I planned some job hunting at Makati and exploring the internet while others were for contract signing already. And also, I received some application invitation from different private companies. Wow! It’s like where ever you look at, there are a lot of job offers, it just, it’s difficult to choose where you can fit yourself and your dreams.
About my plans and dreams? I dreamt to be part of a multinational company like San Miguel Corporation. And luckily I am, I was able to have that. I was able to work with San Miguel Shipping and Lighterage Corporation which is one of SMC’s subsidiaries. I experienced to work with them for a couple of months (actually, it’s just 2 months). I spent christmas with one san mig family. So cool! I saw how generous they are with the employees. But then, another company offered a job to me that gave me an option. My dream or my career? Two different words, somewhat related but then not.
I chose the other company and learned to let go of my dream job. Why? It’s because I chose my career. When I will be staying at SMC, I would be still under agency and I felt that the promise of absorption is quite impossible because when I told them that I would resign, they just offered a higher salary. Unlike with the other, I would be directly hired by that big empire and under probationary, and after 6 months, there will be regularization. That’s what I am looking forward.
It’s just been three months since my another chapter of my life began and many things happened. That experiences look like I’ve been in the industry for a year. So, I really lose my weights and I felt so pale especially when I browsed the updates of some friends pix, I envy them that they really gaining their weights, no stress and not haggard at all.
Well, I’m still positive for what will happen next. And I hope for the positive outcome of this decision. I have some plans to think about and some goals to weighs. I have to study my plans well to have right decisions for my goals whether to go for it, wait or revise.
This blog is really long. “Update kung update eh!” Next time, I hope I could inspire you for my next update because I know it’s quite not good inspiration for everyone. Thanks for reading.
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don’t like conflict. Because you’re so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.
*** thank jika for the link. quite true.